Today I realised a few things.

1. Walks are good for fatigue
2. I have an all-encompassing longing for spontaneity
3. I don't think I'll be able to live alone
4. The days are too short
5. It's much too easy to forget how the sun feels on your face
6. Said sunlight is absolutely wonderful
7. When I looked at the sky, the trees, the vivid green and felt the shifting of the earth somewhere in the world, grief fell upon me in an instant, and then as quickly as it had come, it was gone. A deep, beautiful and warming love replaced it - love for the spirit of all things, and most importantly, the fact that I am a part of this
8. I finally have something to do, after a few days observing the house and noticing just how empty it is. I need to muster up everything I have and shoot for the moon. Again.
9. ...Because if I forgot how beautiful everything is so easily, lord knows it could happen again and I never want to let it go

Tomorrow I'm going to kick myself if I falter. I have some emotional restoration to do that needs to be done before I head back to the cause for it all.

I can't let this escape my grasp.

And so I welcome everything bright back that I pushed away for so long, simply because I couldn't be bothered.